Future is lookin bright.
I am so stoked for this internship, I hope i can do it at the Florida Craftsman gallery or with REAX magazine or something sweet.
I have decided to volunteer my services again this summer at the Arts center. Cause really, that was my second home, my escape, my favorite place to be. What's better than making art with little adorable obnoxious kids and going to the main gallery to escape? What is better than the clay studio with hotties that listen to the Pixies and Bright Eyes? (okay maybe that was long ago but still, I had the biggest crush on my clay instructor! Allison and I both know, he was too cool for his wife Cheyenne...)
What is better than embarrassing myself in front of Drew and Dane, especially because I can never tell them apart? Plus they remodeled the Arts Center. if anybody is interested in volunteering with me (weekdays like 8-12) LET ME KNOW lets do ittttt. I am very excited.
Excited for Greece! Excited to be DONE WITH HIGHSCHOOL IN 6 WEEKS! i should be excited for prom, but I'm not because I dont have a date and there is no way in HELL that I could get patrick to come with me.
I am super superrr stoked because Diane the greeting card artist responded to me, she was extremely helpful and basically gave me such a boost of confidence for pursuing an art career. I have to go to Borders to buy this book she told me about.
She is amazing, really she is my inspiration I sent her some of my work. She does botanical work
I just feel so great right now I have so many thoughts and ideas runnin through my head.
The economy is shit but i WILL succeed. I can't wait to get away from all these people that are so full of shit, people that don't care about anything except getting shitfaced every weekend.
I want to get people together and do stoned group art. I need to go see Lily so we can bounce the energy back and forth from eachother. I need to make my pinhole with Maria, i need to go bike riding with Allie. I need to make some artwork for Chelseas new apartment.
I am so happy to be on good terms with everyone! I am just happy. Stressed, but happy. I feel very appreciative right now, appreciative for the good times and good times to come. Appreciative to take on so many traits from my parents because they really are good people.
I am happy that i can get Dario to smoke weed with me even though he doesn't smoke. I am happy that Mark has so many good movies I haven't seen that i plan on watching. I am so happy MY FAVORITE COUSIN moved down and his adorable baby and wife. He is like my big brother, just knowing that he is in St. Pete permanently makes me feel safe, makes me feel invincible.
I had a fall through with pat last week, he has no right to talk about OUR personal business with other people, to make references to me like I'm a fucking go-to girl. That's not me, that's not my image and I don't have time for bullshit. I exploded but then I dropped it and I brought him the cow skull, which will end up on jimmy's trophy wall haha
I am in a rather awkward situation with a certain someone, but let's not get into that. Practically got lost and ended up by the blueberry patch. Saying goodbye, I hate saying goodbye because now what? Its just awkward and forced. I hate feeling like a tease, and I am not trying to lead anybody on. There is only one guy that I have my eyes set on. But they know that, pat knows that. I don't understand why I can't have a strictly-friend-relationship with a guy without him getting the wrong idea.
Just because I want to hangout or text you and you happen to have a penis does NOT mean I like you or want to hookup, jesus christ boys are so fucking stupid sometimes.
I just get along better with dudes, they don't get involved with drama, they make me laugh, I just feel more comfortable around guys. Its not a competition with guys or shit-talking fest, its relaxing and smoking and making morally wrong jokes.
Nobody can compare right now to Pat, regardless of how nice or good looking they can be.
"Options. I have so many options! " I used to say to Chelsea years ago and she would mock me hahaha. But I know how to resist, I won't let myself become a victim again.